This poem was inspired by MamaGuide on Instagram and my lovely sis in law who sent this to me. I dedicate this to mums everywhere. This will be us when lockdown is finally over.. ‘I thank Me!’ Watch the video here… 😂😂😂
‘Mum can you butter my bread?’
‘Mum help me!! I’m stuck’
‘You never spend time with me…you don’t care!’ My daughter after I refused to do a workout with her right now (I mean really?!!)
Can’t she see? How I’m pulled left and right
How I can’t see the light?
‘Mum I need the iPad’ while I’m trying to mark the class homework before the zoom lesson,
Half the battle is devices,
Their meeting starts, they run and leap
they need to keep
up with school distant learning
It’s actually a thing!
mum Mum MUM!!!
Incessant like a drum
While I’m writing this!!!
Eyes on my phone?
Reading out loud trying to entertain at the same time
trying not to lose my brain
I’m going insane
It’s like a train,
Ground hog day
Everything feels the same
It’s such a drain
It’s not a game!
I must try hard not to vent!
They’ve gone silent
Is it working?
Oh no I hear a groan!
I know I know- I need to be there for them without a moan!
To put my needs aside
Mental health is not a priority
In a house where the children need a part of me
My needs go by
My thoughts go sour
I remind myself this is the way to be
If only I can let go of my anxiety
To serve, to love, to give, to cherish
To enjoy this time, to simply relish
Allah says paradise is at the feet of me
Of every mother
But He must mean
When we put down the screen
When we’re attentive and alive
When we let go of everything else and dive
Into this role that we’ve been given
Oh Allah, help me do this livin
In the best way
Help me remember
Help me to serve my family
From January to December
Let me strive, let me survive
and help me through this life!!
‘Mum the little one stinks’
And I’m pulled out of my reverie
No mums aren’t made the way they used to be
They’d serve and serve and not think of ‘me’
But then I know my Lord is Just and Kind
And has told us to keep a hold of our minds
To take time out to look after ourselves
When we pray to Him and put their needs on the shelf
I know it’s the morning that’s so intense
Sure enough nap time comes and everything makes a little more sense
I lie down with my youngest
He strokes my cheek with his chubby fingers
Snuggles into the covers
His feathery touch
His milky breath
His fluttery eyelids
I love the part when he tries to fight sleep
But then his eyes are closed without a peep
The best part of babyhood and
Motherhood rolled into one
I smile and feel another morning has been won,
I can see the light now
I’m out of the woods
Yes gone are the mothers of the past
But the grandmothers remain with us- their examples last!
Oh Allah help us to find beauty, peace and serenity
Comfort and warmth and Love from up above
The company of Angels, the reminder that these times won’t last forever
To never say never
When the children need me
To be there
To be a rock
To show I care
Help me please help me
Sometimes it’s so hard
To not sit there like a lump of lard
And become a zombie on my screen
Sometimes it helps me not to scream
If I take a few breaths and remind myself to look around me
At these gifts Allah has bestowed on me
To thank Allah and then to thank ME!
For never giving up on my family!!
Thanks to Nurel Yana for the beautiful image.